Dear Beautiful mommy,
I write to you today with so much concern .knowing
that it’s not been easy especially considering that you are raising this
beautiful gift on your own. Believe me I do understand how discouraging it must
be not having a consistent income not knowing where the next meal will come
from.
The people you knew while you were growing up, I
know you see them all married and settled into their own families and I know
they look like their lives are thriving. The person responsible, “he too got
married and is happy with the new family” I know it too hurts but admitting it
to those around you will not make them understand. How your life seems to have
stalled yet theirs didn’t.
I also heard that you moved back home with your
precious one. Believe that this must have been one of the hardest decisions you
had to make following your strained relationship with your mom. Heard that you
cry yourself to sleep every day because of the constantly being dragged by
those you call family. It feels like God has had you on mute for such a long
time and you are tired of your friends telling you to hang in there while they
are living to their best potential.
It is well. I know that you have heard this for quite
a long time and they sound just like words but they are words with such a deep
meaning for me. IT IS WELL. Just like “hakuna matata” 😂 forgive me I just
re-watched the lion king. I say this to say, what you are going through I too
have gone through in fact hearing about this felt like I was hearing my story
being recapped for me.
Feel like I need to share a few things that I am
doing to ease this burden. First I actually talk to God, I know you will say
that you have prayed enough and God doesn’t seem like He is listening but I
want to tell you that He does. For real He does. I know this to be true because
every time it felt like he was mute, eventually He would answer me in ways that
I didn’t expect. I have learnt to trust that He really has my best interest at
heart.
The second thing is when I am too angry and need to
react I take a deep breathe in and out and repeat it like 5 times until the
anger subsides. If I am provoked I can choose not to respond which makes it
much easier for me just like Proverbs says, A gentle answer deflects anger, but
harsh words make tempers flare.
I cry a lot too. I find that at times it helps
relive me from pressure and anxiety. God knew when He made tear ducts 😃😃l!
The final thing I would advise is learn to be in the
moment. Enjoy the highs, mourn the lows but never dwell on things or words that
people say. Remember the saying, they go low we go high? Do that .
Rest assured that I will always be here for you
whenever you need counsel.
Sincerely
ME.
👌
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